Wednesday, February 23, 2011

guess what?!


I turn 23 in exactly a month! On the 23rd! Crazy...and scary!

Any ideas on what age one finally feels like an adult? Is it with moving out? Joining with life partner? Acquiring massive debt? Having children? Buying a house? I wonder...

There is this beautiful little story called "Eleven" by Sandra Cisernos, who I'm obsessed with. It's about a little girl who turns eleven--here's an excerpt: 

What they don't understand about birthdays and what they never tell you is that when
you're eleven, you're also ten, and nine, and eight, and seven, and six, and five, and four,
and three, and two, and one. And when you wake up on your eleventh birthday you
expect to feel eleven, but you don't. You open your eyes and everything's just like
yesterday, only it's today. And you don't feel eleven at all. You feel like you're still ten.
And you are—underneath the year that makes you eleven.

Like some days you might say something stupid, and that's the part of you that's still ten.
Or maybe some days you might need to sit on your mama's lap because you're scared,
and that's the part of you that's five. And maybe one day when you're all grown up maybe you will need to cry like if you're three, and that's okay. That's what I tell Mama when she's sad and needs to cry. Maybe she's feeling three.

Because the way you grow old is kind of like an onion or like the rings inside a tree trunk
or like my little wooden dolls that fit one inside the other, each year inside the next one.
That's how being eleven years old is.

Mmmmm. It's so lovely. And so short--here's the full version! I just love the idea of each year like layers, like little vignettes in the photograph of our life. I like to send the story to friends on their birthdays.


Oh, I won't bother with weighing in, only to say I'm down to 222.8 and happy about it. Because I've been so busy and haven't been blogging as regular as I'd love, I've been bad about sharing my weigh-ins on Wednesdays. But next Wednesday, I'll check in for sure and review how I've been doing!

Hope everyone is well :)) I can't believe it's Wednesday already!



Lisa said...

I love this post, and this idea....and that story. I'm so feeling 10 today!

Thanks for sharing this :)

Shay said...

I adore this! I feel like it's so true. I'm 24 and still feel like that strange weird 14 year old more than half the time. :) And other days, I feel three *blushes* Some days I even feel like an eight year old and jumping on my bed. But let me not make this a whole paragraph. I just totally adore this little story. Maybe with a little more time I'll get to read the whole thing. Thanks for sharing this!

Ro said...

Love this post.
I felt like an adult the minute I had to decide between bills and spring break...then I called my mama and whined to her which immediately took the grown away and I was her baby :-)

Most days I feel 15...seriously….and I am ok with that :-)

paulawannacracker said...

Definitely living on your own, paying bills will allow you to feel like a grown up but I warn you that may be short lived. I'm 48 and have moments of immaturity and I kid you not, I feel like I'm a teenager too. Daniel reminds all the time that I'm a nana and should act accordingly.

Enjoy your upcoming birthday. BTW... I used my gift code and ordered a small blender for my breakfast smoothies... thank you Alexia.

Mary (A Merry Life) said...

Lovely post.

I pretty much still feel like a kid. Or at least still like I'm a college student or something. And I'm about to be 25 and getting married.

keepitupdavid said...

I'm catching up on your blog, and love the excerpt you posted. My birthday is coming up in a few days (on the 5th) and now the idea of adding another onion layer or tree ring is stuck in my head. And I like it.

I knew I entered adulthood when I was fully and completely financially independent from my parents. It happened when I was 23, actually! Happy early birthday!

Alexia @ Dimple Snatcher said...

23 and financially independent? that gives me so much hope, david!! :))

Alexia @ Dimple Snatcher said...

thanks everyone :))))

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